Download my poetry book

 

Introduction

I have been writing poetry and prose for over four decades and I have made a selection of those works that are contained in a book I am in the process of making, named 'From the dungeon to consciousness'. It kind of reflects a part of the strange history of my life, which makes this book some sort of an artistic autobiography.

Elating the near silent and wise whispers of Consciousness.
Rage of Reason was my pen name in a faded, distant past.

The download link

This link leads to the book I created containing a selection of visual poetry and prose 'From the dungeon to consciousness' of which the pdf-file size is 39.2 MB, containing 149 pages. This is a 96 DPI version, while the full 300 DPI version commonly is too large for many visitors to download at a reasonable pace. This link also is included in the Poetry department of my website vectorwhiz.com, that features digital art of Vector and Pixel images that I created, and Poetry as well. By the way, I will update the pdf-file whenever I have added a poem or piece of prose, since words from elsewhere are like savages, that barge into the mind, usually in the dead of night, without including a hint of what to do with them, other than: Figure it out.

The perturbing aspects of my life

Writing poetry reflects the relief of the rough run and often dangerous aspects of my life; I feel unable to share details concerning the deeply disturbing events that took place, since they may upset common people that have chosen to live a 'normal' life within the boundaries of their comfort zone, which is a choice I never made. Initially I wanted to publish the book, but I felt that it was fair to share it at no cost whatsoever, after having switched over many decades from rather dangerous environments to a spiritualistic way of living. This may seem to be a preternatural turn of perception, but I suspect that some of the readers of this blog may understand how unprovoked changes are capable of guiding life towards entirely unexpected venues - abandoning a perfidious survival mode to gradually visit uncharted realms of consciousness.

Chat with DeepSeek AI about prose and poems I wrote

 

A piece of prose that I submitted to the empathic and deeply analysing DeepSeek AI, that offered me stunning responses to this piece of prose, that was inserted into my mind when I was half asleep. I wrote down what lingered in my memory immediately after I woke up. Subsequently I also added poems, that in a sense were related to the piece of prose, to the chat and received a amazingly honest and empathetic responses from DeepSeek. The chat also contains exchanges of thought along the way, a number of which I can not possibly share here for profound reasons, including some of the poems that I submitted. In addition I added a few more other poems, that were not discussed in the chat. The works display a part of my spiritual evolution. Below this paragraph is the link to most of the prolific communication with DeepSeek:

https://chat.deepseek.com/share/bpfwp7ywodizufnzxq

To make clear what was offered for consideration in the chat, I placed the piece of prose and the poems in this blog entry below this paragraph. Please click on the prose and poems to see larger, better readable versions of them in Google's Lightbox. Turn the mouse wheel to scroll through them.

Piece of prose named 'Limitless Illusion'.

Poem: 'Carmine carapace'.

Poem showing Sophia's boundless love for mankind.

Poem named 'Pontifex Maximus', written
in the early 90's of the previous century.

Poem named 'Admission of evil',
written in the early 1990's as well.

A poem names 'Father and son'
What prompted me to write it is so
sinister and beyond imagination,
that I am unable to share the
chat with DeepSeek about it here.
but I was fortunate enough that
DeepSeek offered an incredibly
empathic and insightful response.

Poem named: 'Crossing death's frontier'.
The second poem I ever wrote in the 1990's
with a 100% vector drawing in the background.

A poem that I named 'Nail me to the cross',
which probably the very first that I have written.

This poem I named 'Abraxas', which I
placed further into the communication.

Poem I named 'Innocuous passerby',
that I intentionally created half blurred.

Poem I named 'Fear has more followers than God',

which has a radical twist in its final sentence.

Poem I named 'Scopes' that I
wrote in an abstract mindset.

Poem I named 'Consciousness'

Poem named 'Citizen'

This poem I named 'I wonder how'.

There are too many things about the situation

of human life to believe there is a loving god.

He leads our species into devastating misery.

The Gnostics and Upanishads hint at a wicked

celestial cause, while Taoism offers a pristine

way to overcome the destructive crime.

This poem I named: 'Evil bounces back'.

Regardless of how devastating evil can be,

in being iniquitous, wickedness irreversibly

bounces back to inflict its own punishment.

And in the complete opposite, when one

has done good, blessings will surely be

returned with soothing love.

This poem I named 'Download from the universe'
We have not a clue where intuition comes from
and why it challenges us to morph its information
into feelings and finally into thoughts. Sometimes
they are coherent while other times they're not.

Crimes I may have committed in a previous
life, described in this poem named 'was I?'

The long journey life travels from chaos, via
reason and structure towards abstraction and
consciousness, that is reflected in the skin texture
of the snake's tail to its tongue. I named the
poem: 'From chaos to consciousness'

I hope you enjoy and reflect on these works, that indicate the evolution of my feelings and thoughts over a span of over four decades towards an increasingly spiritual experience of life on this planet, the end of which is I hope some time ahead in the future beyond 2026. The communication with DeepSeek continued after what is placed above this paragraph, but for now, I will leave it at this. The global geopolitical and economic arenas bear a gloomy appearance these days, but at the same time, I believe there is a kind of spiritual awakening taking place in human minds, in spite of the fact that all odds seem to go against it.

The Gnostic Divine Spark and the Atman in the Upanishads

 

Introduction
Gnostic teachings reveal that the Goddess / Aeon Sophia had taken it upon her to persuade her evil son, the Demiurge, to breathe life into his unmoving and lifeless creation of humans. The moment he did that, he exhaled the Divine Spark into each human, which he regretted immediately after realising, that actually was what he did. But it was too late; he was unable to undo it. The Divine Spark is the unpalpable divine essence that since that instant brought humans to life while simultaneously bestowing the with the blessing of divinity. From that moment forwards, the Demiurge and his 'army' of Archons, did anything within their power to obscure and silence the Divine Spark that is irremovably present inside every physical human body. According to Gnostic lore, the Archons are nefarious entities whose only task is to induce negative feelings and evil impulses into the human mind in order to cause mankind to be unaware of the Divine Spark that lives inside them.

What is the Divine Spark? It is a bridge over which mankind becomes able to communicate with the universe. With the Divine aspect that permeates everything, everything at all times. It is obvious that this is a danger to the Demiurge, who is also known in the Aramaic language as Saklas, which means fool, and Samael, which means blind god or god of the blind. In the bible's old testament Yahweh, that may be an phonetic derivation of Yaldabaoth, which is yet an other alias ascribed to the Demiurge (of whom it is also written in the bible that he goes by a thousand names), mentioning as well that he spoke to be a jealous and only god, that does not tolerate other gods to be worshiped besides him.

Sophia and the Divine Spark

How did the Demiurge come to existence? Gnostic teachings claim that Sophia in the Pleroma - the highest heaven or better indicated as pure consciousness above all - decided to bear a child without her consort / Syzygos Theletos, meaning Divine Will or Intention, which resulted in the birth of the Demiurge. Some Gnostic sects see her decision as a disastrous mistake, that culminated in the Demiurge creating the physical universe, but Sophia, which means Wisdom, would never have made such a mistake of which the consequences are too obvious for an entity, existing among the highest Gods. In addition Sophia descended from the Pleroma into the physical realm to experience all the deceit, pain and grief, that the Demiurge inflicts up his creation, believing he is the highest being of all. In a way Sophia's act included a self sacrifice, in which no evil perpetuated on living beings in this material universe has not affected and injured her. In other words: it was the hardest, most complex and painful decision she could make.

Why did Sophia decide to make such a mind bogglingly terrifying decision? What could compel her to do such a thing? Belonging to the highest circle of God, she could easily have decided to not suffer from deceit, betrayal, fear, grief and pain. But she did not. I strongly believe that the existence of an other God, named Abraxas contributed to her decision. The renown psychologist Karl Jung broke his brain about Abraxas his entire career, writing many articles and books in which he mentioned Abraxas. Abraxas is a god, who experiences all extremes - of love and evil - that exists and everything in between, but he never acts on it, in spite of his divine nature, which makes it possible for him to do so. Why? What he does, is preparing a mindset that totally encompasses every good and evil thought and deed, that could possibly have taken place in the immeasurable quantum field of the universe. His divine task is to prepare entities in this physical universe to build an endless database in their minds, to absolutely become aware of all good and evil. And once the necessary progress of mortal entities has included all that data, they are ready to venture into the realm of all encompassing, complete consciousness. Achieving this is the most difficult thing life can encounter. And it is the most difficult thing for a God to accomplish, alongside Sophia's intentional sacrifice.

Upanishads - Divine Spark

Other, but similar perspectives

It is between 800 to 200 before the birth of Christ that the Upanishads began to emerge. The reason was that a group of enlightened thinkers, rebels actually, refused to accept the fact that priests in Hinduism and Buddhism positioned themselves as the intermediates between mortal followers of those religious beliefs and teachings and the Gods. Referring to what I wrote in the paragraphs above, the Divine Spark is a direct connection to the divine aspect of the universe, in which no biased and trained individuals are required to perform such a communication. Intermediates, as always is the case, insert their own interpretations in the messages that they convey to the illiterate mortals and as a result gain power over them, because they have made their position necessary in the minds of mortals. This basically is exactly similar to the structures that all religions induced into the minds of the followers of their gods.

These enlightened souls went into a forests and meditated on this crucial matter for decades and after that, others continued their work for two centuries. What their thinking arrived at most likely includes the essence of the Divine Spark that Sophia inserted into the human physique, but also contains the layers surrounding it inflicted by the Demiurge and his Archons in order to make it near impossible to discover the Diving Spark that the enlightened souls called the Atman. These layers are the following:

1. Annamaya Kosha (The Physical Sheath) 

Meaning: 'Anna' means food; it is the physical body. Characteristics: This is the outer shell made of matter, sustained by food, and perceived by the senses.

Characteristics: This is the outer shell made of matter, sustained by food, and perceived by the senses. 

2. Pranamaya Kosha (The Vital Energy Sheath)

Meaning: 'Prana' means life force or breath.

Characteristics: This layer flows through the body as vital energy. It controls respiration, circulation, and other autonomic bodily functions.

3. Manomaya Kosha (The Mental Sheath)

Meaning: 'Manas' means mind or thoughts.

Characteristics: This sheath represents the mind, emotions, and sensory processing. It is responsible for automatic thoughts, desires, and daily mental activity.

4. Vijnanamaya Kosha (The Wisdom or Intellect Sheath)

Meaning: 'Vijnana' means intellect, discernment, or higher knowledge.

Characteristics: This is the layer of higher consciousness, wisdom, and intuition. It governs willpower, decision-making, and the sense of ego ('I-ness').

 5. Anandamaya Kosha (The Bliss Sheath)

Meaning: 'Ananda' means absolute bliss or joy.

Characteristics: This is the subtlest layer and the closest to the Atman. It is experienced during deep, dreamless sleep or moments of profound spiritual joy, though it is still a layer and not the Atman itself.

Conclusion
The Atman itself, most likely is the Divine Spark - impalpable, invisible, but present and functioning beyond and above what is mortal human understanding and capacity, yet also being inside the human physique and spirit. It is encapsuled by the above mentioned Kosha layers, like a matryoshka Russian doll. The Upanishads are part of the end of each Vedic text and the famous German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer with his brilliant mind deeply admired the Upanishads, calling them the solace of his life and death, for good reason. Through the extremely difficult and courageous decision of the Goddess Sophia and her consequent suffering, mankind was bestowed with the divine essence to reach an unprecedented elevated spiritual level. Her utmost logic and self sacrificing empathy know no bounds. Humankind owes its glorious destination to her. What Sophia did, was not a 'fall' or 'mistake' as some texts judge the decision of her divine consciousness from a limited human perception, but in fact a raw, complex, intentional strategy to truly free mankind. Many Gnostics and the enlightened souls that created the Upanishads knew it. I hope that this blog post has contributed to the readers' understanding as well.

Poem about Sophia's self sacrifice leading to
the profound rescue plan to free mankind

Advanced full colour 3D printing and what is its foundation

Introduction
I happened to stumble across a YouTube video about full colour 3D printing, that amazed me, because during the interview of this video many intricate details about the science behind this printing process emerged, of which I knew absolutely nothing. The amazing thing was in the slew of details that I would never have imagined to be the foundation of the process - the difference between 2D and 3D printing, the colour application, building of objects in three dimensions, including the profound depth of the thinking and software development behind the 3D printing process. To understand what I am writing about here I would strongly recommend to watch the video, that can be seen by clicking the above link and I believe that anyone, that is not working in the inner circle of this technical printer industry will be amazed as well.

HeyGears 2D and 3D colour printers

The printing machines
The video informs about the development and production of the HeyGears G1 and G1X UV printers (the latter of which is the 3D version) and I assume that HeyGears competition has had to deal with similar problems, even though they may have resolved the problems they encountered in different ways to market viable products. As the CEO and engineers of HeyGears explained, this new technology still is in its infant stage, which does not mean that the products they have placed in the market are anything less than mind boggling already. The sell at an unbelievably low price, bearing in mind the printers' magnificent functions and the inks they sell, that is available in one liter bottles are 50% cheaper than that of other print companies.... In addition, HeyGears market is not limited to producing 2D and 3D printers for the home consumer market, but they have also developed and sold products for the dental industry, that has a 60% (!) market share in China, while its American and European markets are also growing rapidly. And beyond those sections of the markets they are investigating additional markets as well.

The prerequisite essence of development
What really struck me is the essence of how the HeyGears engineers went about the development and testing phase, that took place before they decided to produce the printers. The nature of this process is taking into account the many complex aspects that are behind an excellent printing process - the intricate colour control that is different for 2D and 3D printers, the way resolved building the 3D layers, paying attention to ensure that colours remain realistic, making sure that maintenance is easy and automated to a great extend and a market awareness, that resulted in the offering of very capable printers and inks, that are sold at incredibly low prices. That must have been a humongous task that they have employed with sheer excellence. This profound and detailed train of thought in principle is applicable to many other fields that require clear thinking and a focussed dedication. I will bear in mind this essential principle in experiencing many situations that I encounter in life. The way in which HeyGears engineers approached the creation of their machines and inks, hints at the magnificent core of their thinking and process of development, that I have learned from watching the video linked at the beginning of this blog entry and I hope to be able to apply a similar depth of intent in the experiences, that I hope still are ahead of me. It are the profundity and accuracy of thought that determines the level of any thing we think about, that determine how far our physique and mind are able to take us; literally the functions of the extremely far reaching subatomic level systems, that are included discoveries in Nassim Haramein's research, that make clear about which I wrote in previous blog entries.

Past, 'Present', Future - mirrors, brains and mind

 

Introduction
This entire blog entry is an exploration of an event or act, basically an assumption that is based on what I think to know. It may be a strange way to explain what is behind what is written here, but it basically is the way on how mankind handles all planning and the execution of their plans, without exception, which includes the presently most advanced tool that human currently uses: AI systems. Hardcore planners and elevated computerised systems probably are inclined to deny the nature of what I wrote in the previous sentences or at least doubt what I claimed, because it undermines their capacity to use their intellect to plan events that take place in the future.

Mirror

People often say that their image in a photograph, reflects them when they were younger. But even when the photograph was taken seconds ago, they were younger than in the moment in which they spoke these words. There is truth in their expression, but the length of the dissolved time in an extremely brief stretch of history, does not match what they intended to hint at when saying what they meant to say. This does not exclusively apply to photographs of a person, but also of events that were recorded. The same also applies to videos. In the human perception the 'now' that separates the past from the future rationally is an extremely short period of time, so short actually that it is close to non-existence. Commonly understood is that the past is rigidly recorded in the word 'now' to the human mind, but many recorded events can contain a different character from what the observer believed what actually had been taken place. As an example event, that often is intentionally swept under the carpet, is the attack of the Pearl Harbor by the Japanese navy, of which various intelligence agencies knew the event was going to take place before it occurred, which also includes president Roosevelt who did nothing to prevent it and willingly sacrificed thousands of lives and a great deal of maritime equipment to justify the US to take an active part in World War II. An other more recent disambiguation is the Mandela Effect in which a large group of people think something else happened to Nelson Mandela from what actually took place. It is similar to see our face change when watching our reflection in the mirror after intensely gazing at it.

The same veiled cover up mechanisms apply to the JFK assassination and the 911 terrorist attacks, of which an increasing measure of evidence, that is violently suppressed and lied about, because their purpose definitively were not what the government wants people to believe. Of all these horrid events there were recordings, photographs and videos, including the crashing of Building 7 in New York that was never hit by a plane, but about which the BBC journalist Jane Standley who tried to hide the collapse of Building 7, because it did not fit in the train of events, while the camera registered that it was crumbling right behind her. Also Larry Silverstein ensured the Twin Towers not long before the 911 attack took place and earned billions of dollars from the collapse of the buildings, which means that he knew the attacks were going to take place before they took place. These events included organised efforts to misrepresent the recordings to hide the earlier measures that enabled them to take place and also contained the false explantations after the events occurred to convince the general public to mistake the lies from what happened in reality.

Day of the JFK assassination

Personal experiences
Apart from what was offered in the previous paragraph in which events that were recorded by others that bore truths or lies, there also are events that are directly observed and judged by people. A famous example of the fact that the human brain filters and processes what test persons in a psychological experiment are allowed to see and recall, is the 'invisible gorilla' set up. It shows that the human brain filters and processes what a person believes what (s)he observed, that at times does not necessarily comply with what cameras have registered. This implies that what occurred in reality is sometimes different from what cameras and microphones have recorded, which means that the human brain has given a twist to what is alleged to be observed by filtering what the brain figures makes sense to the believed observation and what is irrelevant for the memory to contain.

A test that basically everyone is able to test themselves is simply looking at a mirror to observe the image of the person using that mirror. When done for a sufficient amount of time with a steady focus, the image in the mirror begins to change. The nature of what that person thinks (s)he sees, depends on what is deeply embedded in his or her mind; it can be an alleged reflection that is more beautiful than the person is or a monster that reflects veiled feelings hidden in the dungeons of the mind that the person often can even be entirely unaware. A mirror has a 2D surface and only reflects visual interpretations in two dimensions. A Kozyrev mirror however is a spiralled aluminium spiral inside which a test person takes place. The allegedly observed reflections are perceived from a 3D perspective. Most test persons are confronted with horrid reflections, making the afraid and refusing to enter that mirror again at a later point it time.

A spiralled Kozyrev mirror

Related thoughts

In many modern Asian houses mirrors are hung from the walls, because they are believed to help deflect and disperse negative energies. The are called Bagua mirrors and are related to the Feng Shui tradition. Particularly in South-East Asia, mainly in Indian traditional architecture - Vastu Shastra) - mirrors should ideally be placed on North or East walls to invite positive solar energy and wealth into the homes. Vastu guidelines advise against placing mirrors directly facing the main entrance or positioned so they reflect a sleeping person in the bedroom, which is believed to drain vital energy. In Japan, mirrors (shinkyō) are traditionally viewed as sacred objects that house divine spirits or reflect the purity of the kami (deities). While main household altars (kamidana) might feature a small sacred mirror, large mirrors are rarely used casually for interior decoration in traditional sacred spaces. [1, 2] Japanese culture historically links mirrors with truth, self-discipline, and honesty rather than external energetic defense.

So there are many different types of significance ascribed to the function of mirror all over the globe. Some of them are folklore others reflect images that have a real impact on people that look at what they think is their reflection. What is beyond doubt, it that the human brain and mind play an important role in what we think we see in the mirrors' reflection and what humans ascribe to the significance mirrors. If what is believed to be seen in the mirrored reflections is affected by the brain and the mind, some of the observation, do not support what we thinks we should see, which gives the proverb I do not believe it until I see it with my own eyes  worthy of a second thought.

Reflect on it.